teardrops4eva

There's a lady at my work that is like my 2nd mom, and i just love her so much. ME n Dane are really close to her and she has hepatitis and she just found out she has liver cancer, and i was looking up treatments, and because her liver is already bad, she has a prognosis of a year at the most. Work is getting crzy, everybdy works there for money they don't care about the fucking residents, and everyone is getting on my nerves and the stress of having to move and fix up the house we are living in now, and my mom's car is broke, and there's just so many things, i honestly don't feel like getting out of bed, because i know the day is just going to suck. I want to be finish with school. And i can't wait till i go to my sister's i may just need a break from reality. LIfe just fucking sux

So its tiffany's birthday and i'm not spending it with her :( and mom and me are going to pickup my sister on fri and shes staying till sunday after noon. I work morrow, 3-11 on thanksgiving and 7-12 on fri and 7-3 saturday, sunday grandma is coming over, and hopefully we'll spend thanksgiving together. I've been stressed alot lately, mainly becuz this lpn program as of today i'm passign again, which took so much studying and i have my exam in there on the 12th that i'm going to have to get at least and 80 on. which is gonna be really hard, its on the lympatic system and the cardiovascular system and i've been having problems with it. Other then i'm pretty much fine. I have a project on ambhipians with 3 guys and a girl and its due next friday which is plenty of time, math sux, but i'm still got a b in that class.

I've been stressed lately, but as of right now i'm....happy. YAE!!! :)

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~You~
You look at me
With the look in your eye
And Im glad to see
That your love isn't a lie
I see you still staring
After 15 minutes pass
You know that Im caring
For this whole love mass
I motion you over
You start to walk closer
"How are you today?"
"I'm fine now that Im with you."
"Great, but you wont always get your way"
"Ah, my love, that goes for you too!"
He smiles, as he places a kiss on my cheek
He knows that,
This makes me feel weak!
Around you, I never feel fat
I always feel pretty.
I know that you love me
And that makes me giddy!
With you, I always feel glee.
I want you to know,
Ill always love you!

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What is it about you?
That makes my stomach turn
My heart beat fast
My mouth curl

Is it your beautiful smile?
Your sexy lips
The sweetness of your voice
Or just what you whisper to me

The many things we had and shared
The summer
The late night phone calls
Our passion and love
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The ways we talked and laughed
Were only dreams before we met
Now turned into reality
How I wish this will last for eternity
You are so amazing
When I look into your eyes
I feel nothing but cravings

You make me feel so ecstatic
Chills rush down my spine
My heart beats fast
I feel warmth throughout my body

All I hope for is just one kiss
Your sweet lips against mine
My arms around you
Holding you until the end of time
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Is it possible
That someone like you
Could complete me?

You're the only one I want
The only one I think about
The only one I truly love

Be with me for the rest of time
I'll give you my heart
And you give me your mind
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So began with hanging out with dane (he walked over from P.C.H.S) and then I got 2 MEdical surgery books becuz i'm starting med surg already. And then 4th hour, Biology, which i have a bunch of 10th graders in. But the teachers pretty cool. Shes new, its ms.muhammed. then i have good ole band, which i was going to switch out of, but i need an easy class, so i'm not going to. then i have liberal arts math, with the younger bohlander. and that class seems alright. But i dun't have lunch with nobody i noe, and i'm not really close with anyone in my 4th hour and i only have zack in my 5th hour and richard, mike, and gabby in my 6th hour

Waz up, Silly bitchez. Yea. So I met someone and I ♥ him. Its like I've known him forever, we are meant to be with each other. I've probaly said that before, but this time its true. However....I'm not dating him. And probaly not going to date him. Becuz my mother thinks i need to focus on school, which i know is true (did i mention I ♥ him) anyways GOSH he's the sweetest thing in the whole world, I mean in the universe. Me n him have the same exact sense of humor and everything and we've talked about everything, there's nothing i haven't kept from him, which is amazing enough, because I'm the type that keeps secrets. Oh also My wonderful ex boyfriend (alan) is back in my life......Yes i know....he just got outta of him program about a week (or two??) ago, and he calls me all the time, and he came over yesterday (w/ my lil nephew Nicky,,SOOO cute) but its kinda hard for me to deal with alan, because he's from my past, i mean my first love.... But i remember he always made me cry (right, michele??) and i don't want to deal with that, because my life is so happy right now, for once. Even if i have no time for my best friend, my sister is in alabama and i haven't talked to her, my other sister never answers the phone or calls me back, or my parents fight every single fricken night, and i feel in the middle of it, and i'm waiting for them to seperate from each other. But still because of him....I'm happy. even if we can't be together. Just knowing i met my true love, and he loves me. makes me HAPPY. and i need to be happy. I'm always so stressed. Well g2g

I am happy!

Tiffany just spent the night last night, and went to work at 5. And I have plans with Michele next week. Me N John broke up, because I don't need a boyfriend. I have work and in a month i'm going to have work, school, and nursing school. And John has been getting more and more selfish and assholeish. Like he would blame me because my parents said i couldn't go to his house, and he would get all mad, like a big baby. And i was really getting tired of crap like that. At work i met a guy that works in laundry and he is pretty much my company all the time. He is the best! I feel like i can talk to him about anything, and i have been. So i guess what i'm sayign is, I have a new best friend, lol, j/k michele. No its just nice to have some one always to talk to, and I actually think hes one of those hand full of guys thats a really really good person. I have nothing else to really write about, so BYE

I'm taking a pee test tomorrow and i most likely will start working this weekend. Yep. I have my geography exam tomorrow, and i have no clue where anything other then fricken the u.s and canda and maybe russia, and thats like 3/40 things that i need to memorize. that blows. Votec is over for the year yae. i still have to go until 5/22 though then 5/23 i have math and history exam. and 5/24 i have english exam and thats my last day of school. so bye

MY dad definately got fired, but he has a job. Wanna know where laundry at Charlotte Harbor Healthcare until he can find another place. That sux, that's my home away from home, so now my dad and my mom work there. However my dad will probaly be working the 5 pm till 3 am shift which means i won't see him except when i get home from school ;) yae. and i'll be working the 6 am till 3 pm job so i won't see him

Um we watched a bunch of movies, like History of violence and another movie, i dunno. Zach and ale came over during the morning the they both had to work. Oh we watched In The Mix with Usher. Well yea.
Today Michele's mommy is taking me home @ 1. Oddly becuz usually my mom picks me up at like 10, but i'm not complaining. Then i'm gonna have to study for my 1st pharmocology test tomorrow and try to figure out everything on chapter 11 so i can get an A on my math test. TOODLES

So i'm at michele's hosue for this weekend. And michele, me, n heather jsut played go fish, and slapjack. And we watched Pretty in PInk. And then me n heather played Dirty Scrabble, where we came up with very dirty words, it was hilarious. We only had like 10 letters left outta the whole bag. Yea well i dunno. I will be back. OH new word= LIGGA is a lesbian black person

So yea i definately got a 87% on my exam for mental health. (YES!!!) anyways so me n john were talking n stuff and some how were thinking about getting back together, i mean I think it was life in general making me unhappy, and i kept wanting to blame it on john, even know it was just other things. And he was the only thing keeping me somewhat sane. However this decision is being completely decided by John, which he's thinking right now and he's making me nervous, but if he says no I would understand and be sad, but if he said yes, i would probaly do a little Happy dance. Hehe

my dad's old boss came back today, and she told my dad he had the rest of the pay period and then he had to get another job. Which is bull crap, because he not only has been working his normal hours, hes fixed up the center, planting plants to make it look pretty, repainted the outside, and fixed alot of stuff in the inside, and he worked whenever they needed him at the apartments at night. He loves his job, and thats wierd because he's never enjoy a job this much, and now he might have to leave. And his other 2 boss ladies are yelling at the third person(who fired him) but my dad doesn't know what to do. And now he's going to be upset and angry and i'm going to get the butt of it. Oh and my grandma isn't coming over this weekend, so i'm probaly going to michele's. So that's kewl

Yea, well, Hi. So today was alright, i was kinda of sleepy and aggrivated. And this weekend i really wanted to go to michele's, but i think my grandma is coming over Saturday so i might not be able to :( i have to call my grandma and find out or not. So that sux monkey balls. Also, i said "hi" to John at school today and he just kept on walking, and he looked right at me too. That makes me angry, and somewhat sad. So i refuse to call/send him a instant message. If he wants to talk then he can, becuz he made me very angry today. (yes, by not saying hello)(shut-up, I can be mad for a stupid reason) well i'm going. Love ya all peeps

Like i said, i'll write everyday. Anyways I have my Mental Health Final Exam tomorrow. Some independent study i have to do for the votec ppl(which is 253 math problems),and also like 20 math problems, Study for english test, and write a 250 word summary on a movie i watched in History class. Oh yea today on the way to charlotte, the votec bus got rammed by a girl behind us, because the car behind her's, brakes went out. So yea, me n my girls were in MacDonalds parking lot waiting for the state patrol to come, but it took them forever, because there was an accident up the road, where a semi lost its tire. It was crazy. So thats my life for t0d4y. So toodles w/ noodles

I talked to John for 2 hrs. Gosh I Love him, there's nobody in the world that i would rather talk to then him. Yet i feel that i been holding him back from enjoying life, and i just can't stand my moodiness. How can he? He must be crazy. LoL yep hes the crazy one

from now on i'm writing in here everyday. I'll always have someone to talk to then.